Okay so its been awhile since I have blogged... or expressed my feelings!
So I have been an emotional wreck which isn't anything new (god I really need to go get on some meds) so I'm 25 and I feel like my life isn't going anywhere I mean I still live at home I'm single I don't have any kids which is one of the main reasons why I have been depressed I feel like its never going to happen..... I want a baby these past couple months everyone is having baby's and its sad because I want one bad... crazy hearing myself say that...I dk know If I can even have baby's there could have been many times I could have been pregnant not that I have sex on the regular but still ugh its kinda frustrating... and no I'm not trying to get pregnant but if it happens it happens but then again I need to find a bf and have sex on a regular bases lol
Another thing that I just got upset about was I text my best friend during the week and asked her what she was doing this weekend she said nothing planned so I mentioned to her about going out tomorrow which is Saturday night because I knew she had to be at work Saturday morning (last time we went out she was late for work so didn't think she's would do that again)and she said maybe so I thought okay maybe she's not wanting to go out nothing else was ever said about it so then tonight I talk to her and she says that Amy and Britt. Call her and ask her to come out with them but didn't know if she wanted to go so a few hrs go by I ask her if she's going out she says no not out but to her brothers later so were talking and I'm saying how I'm bored and thanks for the invite hinting around to her asking me to go with her so then I tell her why don't you Come over here for a bit and then she chimes in saying I have plans your the ones that doesn't have plans I say ya you said you were going to erics later she says well amy said they would come back this way whenever( they were in Belleville she didn't want to go) so I'm like Oky well have fun be careful so still not really sure what she's doing! I see she post a pic all dolled up saying waiting for to hoochies to come back this way! Like really no I'm not jealous that she's hanging out with someone other than myself Im upset one she knows I'm bored at home she could have invited Me were all friends two any time I go out I ask her to go just hurts my feelings!
